"Some people think they like music, but they have no idea what it's really about. They're kidding themselves. Then there are poeple who feel strongly about music, but just aren't listening to teh right stuff. They're misguided. And there are people like me.".........."what king of people are those?"......"The kind who live for music and are constanly seeking it out, anywhere they can. Who can't imagine a life without it. They're enlightened."....." I mean when you think about it music is a great uniter. An incredible force. Something that people who differ on everything and anything alse can have in common."......"plus there's the fact that music is a total constant. That's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Becasue a song can take you back instanltly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in you or in the world, that one song stays the same, just like that moment."

I am reading Just Listen by Sarah Dessen....i read this passage type deal and was kinda blown away. It makes total sense what this guy is saying, i started to remember songs which lead me to a fun time with friends or just a time when i was cruising in the car with the windows down and the sun on my face. I love music and making this connection to it makes me love it even more. :)

the stress it seems to put on others

There seems to never be any down time anymore. I work all day, then try to hang out with friends at night. Then the time will come in a few short months when i will be gone, gone to college, and away form my family and friends. My mom seems to already feel the stress of me leaving, she does not want to let me go, so she tries to pull me in, when all i want to do is let go.

When i should be able to branch out and start to leave the "nest" i get my leash pulled even tighter by my mom. It really frustates the both of us, so then we clash and fight. Which is something that i dont want to to so close to me leaving, but it seems to happen. Then if she can not restrain me, she tries to restrain my brother.... which is not good. She cant win it seems. But idk waht to do i want to fly and be free and she wants her little girl back that did everything with her and for her. But i just cant be that anymore, i want to do things for me, that kinds sounds selfish but it is kinds true, i feel like i always do things for others but harldy ever for me. So that is why i just want to do what i want when i want.

LET IT ALL JUST BEGIN NOW!

what do you want your fututre to be like?

So i was confronted with is question the other day, and honestly i did not have a clear answer for it. And, not having an amswer kinds scared me, i mean i am about to go to college and get a degree that might be my life long occupation adn i dont really know what i truely want to do with it. SCARY! SO now i got to really thinking about it and here is what i have come up with far:

Go to college. DUH! I really want to be involed in my school, i want to be able to say that i really did everything there is to do at UTA. I want to be a wonderful student and be able to handle all the stress that comes along with being a college student with class. I want to feel a part of my school but also feel like i left that school with something that helped it become better.
After college. I want a job that i feel comfortable coming to everyday. Yes, it will be something civil related, but i want hands on, out of the office work. Not desk, sit and look over papers. I want a flexible schedule. Like i could work at home some days without coming to the office for 8 hours a day. I know that is like a occupation dream, byt i can find it....right?
Family life. I want to be married in my early to late 20's to a guy that loves me for me and all my flaws. I want him to love the lord and understand why i waited till marriege to have sex. I want him to be happy with where he his in life and knows where he will be going in life down the road. A best friend to me, but still has his own life, i really dont want to share every part of my life with him and same with him. Sometimes a little off on your own doing your own thing is good.
I want two or three kids, but i have always wanted to adopt one, an asian girl, and i have always wanted twins too! I want to be involed in my kids lives, but let them do thier own thing. I want to culture them, but also so them reality and real life as well. Well rounded and filled with life is what i want my kids to be. They need to love the lord and know they are blessed with all that have and for what they are given.

That is all i have so far. i know there is prob so much that i am missing! lol but it will come to be the more i think about it.